Hello my name is Sherman Anderson Jr, I'm extremely sorry for loss, and the pain of your family. I hope in time and with the wonderful memories, the pain goes away. There is a hope for us all found at Acts 24:15 which says:" there's going to be a resurrection of the righteous and the unrighteous." I hope this verse helps with a real hope. You can visit jw.org and learn more hope the bible provides. And if you would like for someone to talk to you about the future hope for mankind. you can request a person to study the bible and its hope with you at jw.org for free. If I can share what the bible teaches, I'm at Mr.andersonjr11@gmail. Again I'm sorry for your loss.