I am so sorry for your loss, I lost my Mom a year ago today. I have found death to leave me with a feeling of helplessness. May I leave you this word of encouragement that has helped me. The Bible says that God or J ehovah hates death; he views it as an enemy. (1 Corinthians 15: 26) He has "a yearning" to conquer that enemy, to undo death by means of the resurrection. He longs to bring back those who are in his memory and to see them live on earth again. -Job 14:14,15. My sincere condolences